Today’s Assignment: publish a post you’d like your ideal audience member to read, and include a new-to-you element in it.
Sounds easy…Not really for a newbie, on her way to soon becoming a Blogging Sofa Bear …
but here goes….
So, Title and tag line have been changed, but I wonder how many bloggers were wondering what my first title ‘Atgofion’ actually meant.
‘Atgofion’, is a Welsh word, and is pronounced :
at-gov (as in GOVernment) – ee – on.
English words to describe this word are : memories, recall, recollect, remind, reminiscence .
Moments flee by but our memories are permanent.
We often share our most powerful memories to enable them to grow with time rather than fade – giving us the ability to remember friends and family long after they have gone.
Memories we don’t share and which can be burdens to bear, are the bad ones….
Why don’t we share those as well?
Because sometimes it’s NOT easy, majority of the time people don’t believe you, or they think your looking for attention, or better still, your talking a load of bollocks in their mind..
My bad memories were NIGHTMARES…always there, day in, day out, lurking, just waiting for a crack in my armour.
They would rear their horrid heads, all at once, sometimes when i least expected it.
They made me feel ill, disgusted, ashamed…..sometimes it felt like others could actually see these memories if they looked deep enough into my eyes, how paranoid is that??
They take over your life, and until you learn to deal with each individual gremlin memory, they will haunt you till you die..
People top themselves because of bad experiences which germinates a gremlin memory, which grows and grows…and if you don’t weed the memory bed, the gremlins take over your head. Literally, physically and mentally.
Bad memories lead to depression, depression, unless diagnosed and treated, leads to self destruction, and once you are on the tip of that iceberg, it’s bloody hard getting off it before it melts..
I find that sometimes, words spoken, are not enough…
Why? People HEAR but they DO NOT LISTEN……it’s like water on a ducks back, they just do not or don’t want to understand what is coming out of your mouth.
The best thing I learnt in therapy was writing, painting, drawing and listening to what my body was telling me….you can’t heal the world if you can’t heal yourself.
It took me a long time to put number 1 first, I still have not perfected that either, I will get there, one day, but for now I am coping very well.
Blogging to a phantom audience is a thoughtful way in which we can share our thoughts and feelings WITHOUT being ridiculed, put down or even belittled because of who,or what we are.
Memories, regardless if they are good or bad, shared with others who have or are experiencing the same, help them and others gain knowledge, empathy, understanding, motivation, encouragement, advice and above all … Unseen friends who understand…. No more embarrassment, no more fear of what others will say or think…and best of all, It’s OUT in The OPEN for millions to read….. How scary is that ? Lol..
That is why, after all these years, I have finally decided to blog mine.
I hope to encourage and help others that are / were in a similar situation and are still trying to come to terms with their demons, and in return, I too will most probably learn a lot from them.
Images used are my own work…photos I take I manipulate into depicting what I am or was feeling at the time of creating it…..
someone else who who has inspired me ….Maya Angelou..
For more inspiration from her, visit : https://www.pinterest.com/search/pins/?rs=ac&len=2&q=maya+angelou+quotes&term_meta%5B%5D=maya%7Cautocomplete%7C0&term_meta%5B%5D=angelou%7Cautocomplete%7C0&term_meta%5B%5D=quotes%7Cautocomplete%7C0